Would I have the courage?

I just finished reading The Alice Network by Kate Quinn. A historical fiction, based on the real actions of Louise de Bettignies during World War I, The Alice Network is haunting and incredible. Unapologetic in its depiction of war and the suffering of occupied France, this book grips the reader from the first pages.

The Cover art with the damn green hat.

Louise de Bettignies, known as Lili in the book, was fearless and witty, quick and brave. Her network was one of the most efficient and effective operations in France. Operating in and around Lille, France, her network of informants could bring down new German fortified positions within days of their being established. The major information revelations in the book were pulled from real reports from de Bettignies. I don’t want to spoil major plot points, but this story had me reflecting whether I would have had the courage to do what these women did… Risking their lives to serve their country. The intimacy of their work, being close to information and power, knowing that getting caught would mean death but not necessarily a quick death. The solitude..the razor’s edge. The constant effort to remain hidden in plain sight. Perhaps my life situation now precludes me from truly knowing what I could do, and for that I am thankful. I hope I never have to know what I’m capable of but I do recognize the courage and sacrifice of women like Louise de Bettignies. Heroes, all. Lest we forget.

Maybe not a psychopath.

I just finished reading The Psychopath Inside: A Neuroscientist’s Journey Into the Dark Side of the Brain by James Fallon. This was a recommendation from a colleague and did not disappoint!

Psychopathy is not something one can just casually assess

From chapter 1: What Is a Psychopath? (Fallon 2013, p. 13)

This book was really interesting, giving me pause to think about my own behaviours and tendencies. Some of the things I like least about my own personality: selfishness, impulsivity, pleasure-seeking, lack of motivation, certainly can be on that psychopathic spectrum but I am empathetic and caring, and I more often make decisions emotionally, rather than via cold logic. But it is still chilling to read that some of the shitty things about me could be shared with a psychopath.

The book is engaging and a very quick read. It balances the academic and the personal, and the outcome is a fascinating glimpse into the inside of someone else’s head- literally and figuratively.

In other news, I struggle to want to do any yoga and walking is boring. So no progress on the moving my body front. I have been drinking more water than usual, so yay me! Celebrate the successes, amirite?

They don’t make ’em like they used to…

This week I watched Cocktail, the 1988 Tom Cruise movie. Of “Kokomo” by the Beach Boys fame. Watching this movie was a topic of conversation the night I found out I actually like (pink) gin. Judge me. The movie is terrible but it’s still some delightful 80’s confectionery. They just don’t make soundtracks like they used to…

Case in point, the soundtrack to Stand By Me. Or Dirty Dancing.

Name one song from something you saw recently. The Star Wars theme does not count.

I read The Woman in the White Kimono by Ana Johns. It was a loan from my lovely Great Aunt. The Hoodlet has it now. (That’s a reminder for me to collect it from her and return it. In case I ask you who has it.) This was a really interesting story of an American woman learning about her father’s time in the Navy in the early 50’s. Lots of water and all the connotations that come along with it.

Photo of the cover of The Woman In The White Kimono

What I’m reading: Resonant Leadership

In health news, my back continues to be a bastard. However, I did walk 3km on the treadmill while watching The Marvellous Mrs. Maisel and I didn’t take any prescription strength pain medication today! Extra strength Tylenol and Advil are still very much on the menu…

Holiday break 2019

It’s the end of the year, a time I always do some reflecting.

The last 20 months have been busy and demanding. I finished my Masters degree, dealt with the most debilitating injury I’ve ever experienced, started a new job, and generally tried to hold it together. I’ve been moderately successful… Some of life I’ve handled better than others… I am planning to be better next year.

Here’s how:

  • Rehab for my super sexy herniated disc, focusing on core work and hip flexibility. Measure of success: Run regularly again.
  • Find a board of directors to help me with career planning, development and progression. Measure of success: Four directors.
  • Read for fun again. Measure of success: Document it here.
  • Slow my roll with The Next Thing™. Don’t rush into the next big thing… Measure of success: Knit a sweater.

Yes, I know those aren’t exactly SMART goals and the measures of success are unique but it’s all meaningful for me. You are invited for the ride!

What I’m reading

Philip Pullman’s The Secret Commonwealth and it’s being consumed with some Muscato.

Let’s go 2020. I’ve got plans for you!

What I’m reading – May 2019

In progress:

Me, Myself, and Us: The Science of Personality and the Art of Well-Being by Brian R. Little

I’m currently reading this for school and only at chapter three. Learning about the Big Five Traits of Personality and the continuum of each (versus the ‘x not y’ approach of other personality tools such as Meyers-Briggs) has helped explain why I get varied results on other tools.


Muse of Nightmares by Laini Taylor

Part two of the duology that started with Strange the Dreamer. Fanciful and fluid writing. Both were so good. Don’t knock YA until you read some!

Lying In Wait by Liz Nugent

Interesting twist and quick read. Meh though.

It’s been awhile

While I was away…

I went back to work
Started my Masters in Leadership
Ran a handful of trail races… But didn’t race them..
Herniated a disc

And generally put running on the back burner.

Tonight though, I found that high.

Sweaty and happy, it’s time for a soak and a good book.

More to come….

What I’m reading: I’ll Be Gone In The Dark by Michelle McNamara